And he tried to get into the bible

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 04:08:26 GMT

nebraska_
...I know. Just add it.
I added a few of you already, but it's getting late
and I've got Christmas presents to wrap.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 02:37:06 GMT

It's 12 degrees outside right now and I hate that.
I'm going to Florida Friday morning and I hate that too.
My japanese skirt looks pretty cool with my boots, though.

I feel completely unoriginal. My lack of
creativity lately is making me feel sick.
I want to paint and write and stich and photograph.
And I want all of it to turn out incredible.

And on top of all that I want to be smart.
I want to study literature, philosophy,
government, religion and language. And I want to
understand all of it. And when I'm 27 I want to
debate the symbolism in great literary works
with my husband at the dinner table.

And finally, I want to be bragged about.
And no, I don't think that's too much to ask.

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 03:18:37 GMT

You should do it to make me smile.
I've been having a really good few days,
so don't ruin it by not doing as I ask.

1. I ______Chelsea.

2. Chelsea is _______.

3. I want to ______ Chelsea.

4. Chelsea reminds me of ______.

5. Without Chelsea ______.

6. The best thing about Chelsea is ____.

7. I think Chelsea should ______.

8. If Chelsea were here right now I'd ___.

9. If Chelsea gave me a kiss I'd ______.

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 16:26:24 GMT

I got to hang out with Jessie and Angie yesterday.
Then we met up with Chrissy and she's super cute too.
Then I got into Michigan State. And now I'm happy.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 21:19:22 GMT

Getting haircuts is the best.
Finishing an essay and going to work is not.
I'm going Christmas shopping tomorrow.
I'm going to wrap everything I buy as soon as I get home.
For Christmas I'm getting a digital camera! And a keyboard!
Florida will be a nice break from life here, too.
And I'm sure the month following will save me.
How exciting. Happy December, everyone.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 23:13:39 GMT

I ate a hot dog and macaroni and cheese for dinner.
I felt like I was a 7 year old kid.

I hate when I think myself sad.

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 19:46:23 GMT

Okay, seriously...

Nine Inmates Escape From Jail, Five Recaptured
YAKIMA, Wash. (Nov. 26) - Four maximum security inmates, including one murder defendant, were at large Saturday after they and five other men used a rope made of bed sheets to escape from the Yakima County Jail, authorities said.

...what?

My break has been good thus far.
Work has been bearable.
It snowed just enough.
I got to see Sean..twice.
I had the most entertaining Thanksgiving I've had in years.
I finally had a sleepover with Angela.
And I got McDonald's breakfast.
Unfortunately, I can hardly stand my computer any longer
and my sewing machine has also decided to gang up on me.

I'm taking a remedial art class for fuck-ups and retards.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 02:45:46 GMT

Why I've gone from miserable to happy in a matter of 24 hours:
+ My grades are, yet again, kickass.
+ I get to drop Pre-Calc second semester
+ My journalism portfolio is coming together
+ I get to hang out with Jessie and Laura tomorrow and shoppppp
+ No one's blaming me for the computer virus though it's entirely my fault
+ One day of school until break
+ One more cardmarking til the year is half over
+ My shirt making skills are returning
+ I'm going to sleep soon

I'm glad I feel better. I wish I didn't have those little anxiety attacks.
I hope this lasts. I feel really positive about everything right now.

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 03:24:35 GMT

I wish I remembered what it was like to have friends.
I can't remember the last time I felt this miserable.

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 20:17:40 GMT

I think my least favorite thing in the world is waking up to screaming on Sunday mornings and knowing that I haven't anywhere to go.

I'm discouraged, sad and for the first time in a long time, scared.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.

I hate when good nights are ruined by computer viruses and the smell of paint.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 02:22:35 GMT

Today was wonderful.
It was the first snow of the season and I hung out with Angie and had Taco Bell.
I forgot how much I love driving around, blaring music and interpretive dancing.
Plus, I got a telephone call that I'm still smiling about.

I'm almost done with Sean's shirt. Then I'm making one for myself.
Then I'm making one for Sara. I hope to be done by Thanksgiving.

Apparently I'm going to Florida this coming December.
I might go again later on for awhile and intern at a magazine.

Christmas shopping this year will be the death of me.

MY "X-MAS" LIST
[1] new glasses
[2] digital camera
[3] DVDs, including:
-Rushmore
-Life Aquatic
-The Royal Tenenbaums
-Annie Hall
(more to come)
[4] MK&A t-shirt from FredFlare.com
[5] close-up filter (and all other filters, really)
[6] new black shoes
[7] position of the day calendar from Urban Outfitters

There's more, I'm sure. I can never think of anything when I try to make a list.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 21:45:36 GMT

News:
!I did the hokey pokey today.
!My nails are red and my hoodie is too big.
!I'm really tired of even mildly healthy food.
!I'm getting new underwear tonight.
!I need to brush my teeth.
!I want to see about The Weatherman, Shopgirl,
Ice Harvest(...Mr. Cusack), and The Squid and the Whale.
!A haircut has become absolutely necessary.
!I played around with my layout

Love me.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 03:41:09 GMT

I love that it gets dark at 5:45 now.
I love that it's getting closer and closer to Winter.
I thought that I loved Fall, but I don't mind that it's over.
I want it to be white outside.
I want to have candles burning.
I want to wear warm, winter coats.
I want to make my way through the crowded malls.
I don't care if it's cheesey; the holidays make me smile.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 22:14:07 GMT

Halloween was really nice.
Carving pumpkins was a pain in the ass but it was fun nevertheless.
I did most of Sean's homework for him.
Who knew I was so good at physics?

I have to work all this coming weekend which is just the pits.
So is the headache that I have right now.
But I think I did well on both my tests today.
And I'm starting to understand my math.

Plus, I look like this:

Looking at them, looking at me, looking at them

My mom thinks I need a hoodie that doesn't match my hair.
I think that she couldn't be more wrong.

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 18:00:55 GMT

My mom is watching football and screaming at the television.
I guess that beats her screaming at me, though.

My hair is bright red. Pictures tonight or tomorrow.

Sean, Angie and I went to Stan and Eric's show last night.
It was really cute. I want to see them more.

Making CD's is hard work.
You're late!

My back hurts.
I want japanese take-out and my Annie Hall dvd.

Let's move to Seattle.

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 00:10:58 GMT

So, I've got this new screenname, right.
It's tokyo schmokyo.
I won't be crushed if you don't add it, but maybe
it'll be something new and different for you.

News:
-wrote a short story I liked; going to write another
-falling in love with Photoshop all over again
-met and loved Sean's family
-became smart enough to beat a computer virus
-held myself back from giving someone the finger today
-did kickass on my report card when I hardly even tried to
-The Godfather is one of the most tragic movies I've ever seen. I've never been so utterly impressed with a film.
-felt good about myself
-my dad went to conferences and when my Trig. student teacher said I needed to use my time more wisely he goes "so I said to her 'screw you...bitch.'" I don't care if he really didn't, it was still hilarious.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 21:45:36 GMT

So I used to look like this...

Better ones after this weekend. I promise.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 21:09:47 GMT

The only things that made me feel good today were cigarettes
after school and putting on a shirt straight out of the dryer.

I hate it here.

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 16:30:58 GMT

Waiting is unbearable.

I love my new hair-cut.
Pictures: Tuesday or Wednesday.

It's stange how you can think you know something
but come to find out that you couldn't have been
more wrong. And how when you realize what it really
is like, it's okay. And you're okay. And things are just...better.

I want to go to a haunted house.
And I want to know a magician.
And I'd die to be an artist.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 19:43:42 GMT

I'm updating my journal when I've got approximately
47 minutes to finish an essay that I haven't started.

I got scholarship information at school today and if
I work on The State News at MSU I can get $2000 annually.
That's pretty neat. I'm going to talk to Knudson about it.

I've got a haircut appointment on Thursday and a color
appointment next Tuesday.
Cut:

Color:

You should tell me how cute I'll look.

Angela and I are going to get our nose rings soon.
I feel like we haven't hung out in 3 years.

I drew portraits today in Chemistry.
Everyone was very appreciative for them.
It could've been some of my best work.

My sweater and pigtails make me feel cute & the
smell of fall is one of the most relaxing things ever.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:54:11 GMT

Stolen from Miss Melissa
1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is always the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I have broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need/want money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I slept with a roommate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop and/or window shop.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like/love someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I am proficient on a musical instrument.
I hate office jobs.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I am a pyro.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
I adore bright colors.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I am ambidextrous.
I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
I have terrible teeth.
I hate my toes.
I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
I have lived in either three different states or countries.
I am extremely flexible.
I love hugs more than kisses.
I want to own my own business.
I smoke.
I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. HAHAHAHA.
I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
I have played strip poker with someone else before.
I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
I can't stand being alone.
I have at least one obsession at any given time.
I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
I have traveled on more than one continent.
I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
I am a Libertarian.
I can speak more than one language.
I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
I would rather read than watch TV.
I like reading fact more than fiction.
I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
I have no piercings.
I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
I've been married and am now divorced.
There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
I like most animals better than most people.
I own a collection of retro games consoles.
I have hit someone with a dead fish.
I have written/read erotic stories.
I am compulsively honest.
I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
I dislike milk.
I obsessively wash my hands.
I always carry something significant around with me.
Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. Not all. I'm not completely heartless.
I am a virgin.
I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
I'm a mean bitch...and I'm (not always) proud of it.
I've made real clothes and actually worn them in public.
I enjoy math.
I have played golf in the rain on purpose.
I may look confident on the outside, but sometimes, my self-esteem is lower than Dante's 9th Circle of Hell.
I am horrible at remembering names.
I am bi-navel (I have two belly-buttons.)
Sometimes I get satisfaction out of seeing the people I love hurt (emotionally/spiritually) because I still have a grudge about something they did to me in the past.
I have calluses on the bottoms of my feet.
I have a hard time opening up to people, and build a wall around me, although not intentionally.
I dye/cut my hair when I am upset.
I'm happiest when I'm in the darkroom.

Kari and her cutecutecute baby Blake.
He'll be one this November.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 00:29:40 GMT

I just despise how I've been feeling lately.
I hope that it's for the reason that I think.
I hope that tomorrow helps.
I know this weekend will.

My grades aren't what they could be.
I hope I can bring them up.

You drive me nuts.
I'm a bad person, but I have a new icon.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 20:06:19 GMT

It's weird how long its
been since my last update.
Nothing has changed.

Chicago was okay. My camera broke.
The pictures I have aren't
really worth posting in my eyes.

I hate food. Nothing tastes good.

I'm really fucking sick of my icon.

Sean and Angie and I are going to
the cider mill this weekend. Maybe
even a haunted house? I don't know.

I rented Lords of Dogtown.
It wasn't at all what I expected.
I hated Heath Ledger and fell asleep.

You should all, however, rent Crash.
It's one of the best movies I've seen
in a while. Well worth the $4 fee.

What a stupid update. I apologize.
Not really. You can all fuck yourselves if you don't like it.

;the truth is we are not even friends

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 20:49:56 GMT

I leave for Chicago on Thursday.
I'll be back Saturday night.
I've got money to spend and pictures to take.

I like Mr. Schopieray even more
when he helps me after school.
I might not even fail my Chem II test now.

I need a haircut & dieting is really hard.

Things I need to do:
! Pack for my trip
! Study, study, study
! Set up my sewing machine
! Go to the thrift store/Joe's Army-Navy
! Make better food choices
! Buy blank CDs
! Stop worrying over you

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 02:10:50 GMT

My birthday was wonderful.
I'm a horrible penpal.
I say what I think.
I think you're too self-centered.
And I think you're dramatic.
And a big fat liar.
[Clouds in my coffee, baby.]
Chicago in less than two weeks.
But no homecoming dance for me.
I have the most wonderful telephoto
lens in the whole wide world.